Good morning world!
I hope you had an amazing week and that this weekend will serve as a time for you to rest your body, mind, and soul. If you are new to my blog then every now and again I write posts like this where I just share what is on my mind in hopes it will reach someone who might benefit or find enjoyment in it.
Grab a cup of coffee with me and here we go…
I woke up this morning from a wild dream that was so vivid I had to stop and take a moment to tell myself it wasn’t real. It wasn’t a nightmare it was just a dream where I was at work and my co-workers were in a fight over something small and I was struggling to choose a side. Then out of nowhere my gynecologist shows up along with my Oriental Medicine Dr. (DOM) and offers to give full pelvic exams right there in our warehouse. While the doctors were setting up I was asked to do a couple different tasks here and there while also paying attention to the doctors and signing consent forms for the exam. Just as I was handed a gown to change into I woke up.
(Not in the dream) Luna started rattling her cage in the other room which is her morning signal that she is ready for us to wake up and feed her breakfast.
Sometimes I have dreams and they make no sense and I can’t even piece together what could possibly mean but for this dream I know exactly what it all means.
- I actually need to get my yearly gynecological exam and I have been putting off because it is hard to find a good doctor here who is covered by my insurance and then I have to ask for time off from work and blah, blah, blah. Excuses, Courtney! Go get your lady parts checked out!
- My Oriental Medicine doctor gave me some herbs to take for my migraines and “trapped heat” and I have not been as diligent about taking them as I should be so his presence is probably a reminder for me to take them every day. Oddly enough this doctor also talks a lot about vivid dreams and how they can be a sign that you have heat trapped in your body.
- The work conflict and me not being able to choose a side is probably about this general theme in my life where I struggle to make choices that I want versus what other people want. I want to please people and do everything but that is just impossible and I often feel extreme guilt because I can’t do what everyone wants me to do. The part where I am doing a bunch of random tasks while trying to pay attention also points to my over committing myself constantly.
I think this particular dream offers a lot of insight into where I need to go with my life. As you all know I am on a bit of a journey to change my life in new and positive ways. We are coming up on week 7 of this journey and I have made some significant changes but there is more to do! I think this week I need to focus on organizing my life mentally. I need to make a decision to be all in or not for some things, including this blog and my YouTube channel. A quote comes to mind that is perfect for anyone going through change:
“If you want to change your life, change your mind.” -Sister Hazel
Yes, that quote is from a 90’s band but it’s very applicable. You can move your life in any direction you want to but you just have to change your mind and perspective. Let go of what others may think and do what you feel is best. I have given that advice to so many people and it’s time I give it to myself.
So, those are the coffee thoughts for the day.
P.S. If you are putting off a doctor’s appointment make it this week! I will make mine too. 🙂
I want to do a Q&A so leave me any and all questions you may have for me about ANYTHING and I will answer them.
Talk to you soon!